Week 2.. Still loving Thesis

Time flies.. Its already Week 2 of uni for me. Well, I guess its been a pretty horrible week filled with thesis reading and more thesis reading. But otherwise, its all good. Since its week 1 of uni, there isn't much work to be done, except for the fact that I wanted a good head start for my thesis thats why all the late nights...

Today, I felt like an ass in the thesis tutorial. I realised that a handful of students still don't know what their thesis topic might be. And guess what, more than half the class didn't know the aims and objectives of their thesis. Well, in this case, I'm considered pretty fast already. But upon meeting up with my supervisor in the afternoon, I somehow felt that he isn't really satisfied with my work done. After leaving his office.. I realised that all the summaries I've written so far was kept well in my file, not shown to anyone. DAMN! How could I? Thats a big demerit on my side. But I guess I could only make up for it in this week then.

I should be going down to Sydney this saturday. Gonna catch the Mardi Gras.. Waahaa.. I missed it last year, so I can't afford to let it slip off again this time round. Afterall, you might not know, this might be my last year here. God knows where my future lies. I was warned to wear extra pants if I don't like people touching my ass.. haa

So I had curry tonight. I did the cooking and I was pretty satisfied with it. Chicken taste good. Everything seems right. Just like the good old Singapore style Curry Chicken. I think I deserve some credits for it right people? *Claps!!* Alright.. So I guess I might lose my competition with mummy then.. with all the junk food coming in. I have no idea how much I'm gonna gain this year! Woah! God... please save me!

I still miss home actually. I just miss my mum's yong tau hu, bak tuk teh and those yummy yummy stuff. She cooks so much better than me. Its an achievement. An achievement that she took years of practice to achieve. When will I get to eat those yummy yong tau hu? When will I get her bak tuk teh? Arrrhhh...Guess what, my mum is gonna celebrate her 52 in less than 3 weeks time! Wahhaaha. Shhh.. dun tell her that I disclose such a big secret on my blog.

Oh, I had a test today. An english test. Its been years since I sat for an english test. God knows how I might fare this time. I have no idea when the results are gonna be out.. I'm pretty excited to know about it as well.. since it has been so long since my last english test. Haaa.. Its an essay thing. So I actually wrote almost a cool 3 pages within half an hour. I'm not even that fast when it comes to copying homework! Oh gosh!

I'm pretty pissed off with a fact of life. People coming to you only when they need you. What the hell do you think I am? One night stand? I hate to be unkind so I can't be so straightforward at times. But how am I suppose to make people understand the fact that even I have the ability to help doesn't mean I MUST HELP.

"Don't be such a KAYPOH"
- mum -

Indeed. Don't be one. Simply because..

"It's none of my business"
- me -

Ahhh.. something nice did happen last week. I actually received an invitation to become a committee member of some International Student club in the Uni. In fact, they had invited me last year, but at that time, I was only thinking of "freelancing". This time round, their sincerity really touched me. I may or may not join them thou, due to my other commitments. But actually, the point of mentioning this issue is not to brag how good I am that people wants me in! But the fact that I have a few person to thank.

First and foremost.. My dearest Mummy!
Her words are ever so encouraging. Ever so supporting. She told me that I'm in a better position to judge my own timing and work commitments. She had trusted me to handle my things well and I really appreciate it. Isn't it a wonderful fact that I don't have a "governing" mummy to keep nagging and keep saying..
"Its all for your own good.."

Secondly.. DCCL!!!
Reason being. She simply asked me to GO FOR IT! Haahaa. Aiya, after years of being together, she should know very well that I really enjoy myself while doing all those stuff. Otherwise how else can I account for my commitment in CENT. A fellow fighter for almost 5 years.. Guess what, she actually in cahoot with mummy de! ARGGHH.. They are planning to go out for a great meal and take snap shots of the food and send it over to me! So much for that 5 years of friendship. ARGH! Ni hai shi ren mah?

Last but not least.. Zihua!
Thanks for giving me the confidence, the much needed confidence. This girl ah.. Haiz. Very supportive towards my decision actually. How should I put it leh.. I really dun know how else I should put it..
In a layman term.. Thank you!

Time to get cracking then! My peak hours are here finally!!! Booohooohooo~~ I just love thesis!

while at the restarant.. 

Piglet holding on to the purple roses.. How nice is that..  

Birthday girl Sara with me and Keran! 

Oh look, who is it for?  

ah.. this is my sec school teacher.. hard to believe? She look more like my sec school classmate actually. Aww.. 

Everyone.. Meet Joe, Joe Black. 

Phewwee Weet! This is Ling's girl gang mate! Adeline.. Chio rite? Half as good as me only.. Haiz.. no worries. lol 

Here is everyone.. or almost everyone.. But thank god I'm still the chioest among all. Phew.. 

Here is my family 

The girl who rebonded her hair and the guy whose hair is supposed to be rebonded. Lingz and my xiao hong mei! 

This is mummy irene and Michael 

Ahh.. I almost forgot about my own birthday man!!! Like this photo? Just look so funny in a way.. 

Yuan Zhe Shang Gou! Heehe.. is that right? Look, the little fishy was the willing party alright, I didn't force it to come up. I guess it just wanna take a picture, thats y. 

Look who's fishing? Its your truly, Cheerene lah! The first catch of the day. And due to some of our Law on fishing, I threw it back to the waters. But I wouldn't want to eat it anyway cos its really brightly coloured. Abit weird. I would rather go "fishing" at the fish market nearby. 

Finally in the final year.

Uni is starting tomorrow.

Wat a great way to start Uni with a 830am class right there! Damn it.

Well well, surprised by my thesis. I've got A.Prof Ian for my Thesis Supervisor. Well, he is one of the few supervisor who can offer me a thesis that I would want to work on. But anyway.. its gonna be hardwork. Its Thesis.. expect no less.. Haahaa..

I've finally cleaned my room, or rather, the whole house. Except for the bathroom. Cos I'm really too tired to go on today. With a housemate who know nuts about cleaning after herself. But I guess I will have to endure. Its not that she doesn't want to help. My housemate is a good person, just that she is not used to all these. I find it really surprising that she can survive till now actually. But anyway, its not really up to me to comment about her.

Oh yes, I had a party last night. It was pretty alrite. I didn't drink at the restaurant, but I went over to my friend's place for some thou. Its just Midori.. something that taste more like syrup rather than alcohol.. Oh did I mentioned that its really sweet? You wouldn't want to drink so much of it, trust me. Anyway, we had some pictures taken during the party. I shall post it up when I get hold of them.

I've also uploaded some of the pictures taken during my fishing trip at the harbour. Look below!! Heee..

Thats all folks, i'm alittle tired actually. I'll take 5 now. Seeya!

Part 2- Quarter-life Crisis

I was just fliping thru the papers (tuesday's edition of Straits Times) when I came across a particular article. It was on "Quarter-life Crisis". Reading thru it confirms my fear.. I'm in it.

I did a little check on the website stated in the papers.. wikipedia.. At times, i do find this website alittle crappy, but nevertheless.. it does seems useful at times.. Anyway, checking up on Quarter-life Crisis will give you these..

Firstly, the Characteristics of the Crisis:

• confusion of identity
• insecurity regarding the near future
• insecurity regarding present accomplishments
• re-evaluation of close interpersonal relationships
• disappointment with one's job
• nostalgia for college life
• tendency to hold stronger opinions
• boredom with social interactions
• financially-rooted stress
• loneliness

Secondly comes the Financial & Social Aspect:
A primary cause of the stress associated with the "quarter-life crisis" is financial in nature.

-Excerpts from Wikipedia-

I have realised it myself.. I've been feeling very moody since I came back. New Year didn't help bring my mood up.. (not a bit at least).. in fact, it has made it worst.

Stress came by and wreck my holidays.

I've been asking myself what I really wanted in life. I hate the answer "I don't know". I know my have to make my mark by the age of 30 but how? Again.. "I don't know".. Uncertainties and insecurities. Looking up the list of the characteristics, I guess there is none which I don't sastify.

But anyway.. If there is a problem.. There ought to be a solution to it. I will find my where to it. Myself.

Part 1

What do you really want in life?

This is a friend's msn nick. Its been long since I've thought about this question. So what do I really want in life? How much am I going to achieve anyway?

These things never fail to bother me every now and then. Some will say I have a fear in me, some say I'm just stressing over nothing, while others believe I'm just plain ambitious.

I only believe in this.. If I can score 100%, I would not settle for 99%. At the age of 21, I have nothing to my name. No house, no car, no credit card, no career.. Cash? $10 I still have maybe. I was just telling ling yesterday.. if by the age of 30, and I still have nothing to my name.. I would be better off to end this life. Its just like saying I have wasted half my life on nothing.

Thinking back.. I wasn't a dumb kid afterall. I used to be a top student (just like my other siblings). Its due to my sheer laziness and playfulness, I didn't do very well in my studies. Even till my O levels.. my sister thot I would not even make it to any ITE.. who knows.. I managed to even get into TP without any sweat. I told her before.. its not that I don't have a brain.. its just that I don't like books.

Things do start to change as I get older.. during my last sem in poly.. I did work abit on my results.. it did pay off abit.. As I got into Uni, things did change in my life. I began to work my ass off.. and again.. it did pay well as I scored my first 2 distinctions in Uni.

Whats the motivation behind it?

Its a fear of not achieving in life.

But anyway.. I've got to work now.. I will continue this some other time...