Very tired.. I tink I'm going to fall sick soon. Keep getting very bad headaches nowadays. But no matter wat.. I will still fight all the way! Hahaaha.. Cannot fall sick now leh, too busy to just lie on bed and sleep.

Everyday is full of little surprises! Live life to the fullest.

Suddenly recalled wat Mr. Ng had said. We were chatting about my sister, he said that there is many aspects in life, my sister might be good in studies and excel in her workplace, doesn't mean she is good in other aspects as well. I couldn't agree more. He said that these areas which she excels in just so happen to be the aspects that people deem as more important. But it doesn't mean that other areas in life are not important. This slowly made me recall something which I've learnt sometime ago... "what is popular may not be right, what is right may not be popular"

Yes, I might have always live a life under her shadow. I try to excel in whatever she did. But many times, I failed. Those words have made me wake up abit. Its not because I'm lousy that I can't perform as well as her in terms of studies and work, but its just that we wanted totally different things in life. We had totally different goals. She is a person who prefers something more realistic, I would at times prefer to work according to my heart, but of cos, I'm still pretty realistic at times. She plans very well ahead of time. I would prefer to take a step at a time. On a darker side of thinking, who knows what will happen next? Recently I began to realize this.. sometimes tomorrow never comes. I'm pretty bugged by these bad thots. But I just cannot stop it from recurring in my mind. She treasures money more than anything else, I treasure happiness more than anything else.

When I try to compare the both of us together, I realized that there are still some areas which I'm stronger in. And I believe no matter how hard she work, she could never surpass me in those areas. I should have faith in myself and continue to work hard in the areas that I'm comfortable with. I should not allow myself to live in her shadow anymore. I should be able to stand up against all odds.

Yesterday nite, I log off pretty early, but could not get to sleep. Keep having images of my family flashing across my mind. I do feel very bad at times. But sometimes I just could not force myself to speak to them regarding certain matters.

Yesterday, I finally took the initiative to ask my sister out for a movie, after a 2 week long cold war. Well, it ended up with a whole group of us. Lucky there were enough tixs to go around. So after the movie, we went over to Geylang for dinner at that "No Sign Board" restaurant. We had some great crabs. 2 thumbs up for the food there! After that, I finally found a chance to speak to her about the air tixs problem. I failed once again. Not being able to get my point across.

Quite bored ah... Being forced again. But before I make any decision, I guess I will still wait for the reply from the Uni ba. Just in case I'm being blamed for nutting again! Stupid! Hahaha.. I go n prepare some stuff for Christmas liao ah! See u..


Between now and then, till I see you again, I'll be loving you..

Love,
Me